I have been rereading my posts and I realized that I have not been motivated to write at all about my weekly check-in meetings with my HMR Health Educator. So, I am wondering if I should stop going. Here is why:
As of late, it seems like all of the other people on the call (approximately 10pp), are just depressed. We have to report our losses and gains, and it seems like everyone has been gaining consistently over the past few weeks. I am the only one losing. I am finding it pretty unmotivating. With the blog community, if someone's post is a downer, I read it, try to send some motivation, and then move on to something perky and hopefully inspiring. I don't have an out on this call.
We discuss why people think they aren't losing, but the reason is obvious: they aren't following the plan, they aren't moving, they aren't keeping up with their food journals. It isn't the kind of call where you can call someone out on the carpet and say "Hey! Get with it!" In fact, it isn't even the kind of call where you can say, "You will surely do better next time."
The call is totally reliant on the feedback of the HE. Typically, she tries to find the positive in all the negative. "Well, you gained 3, but you ate 10 more servings of vegetables than last week." I am not buying this approach. There is going to come a time when the scale is not so kind to me as it has been thus far. I need more than kudos because I ate all my broccoli. I want to be enabled to lose these pounds, not enabled to just squeak by. This is where all of you come in.
I have been truly humbled by the support that I feel by writing. Maybe the feeling is all in my head, but I feel like you all give a crap about me & Ethel. So, here is my plea: kick me in the tush when I don't do what I should. Give me praise when I deserve it. Help me do better. I promise to do the same for you.
Off to the gym for only the 2nd time this week. Cheers.
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