How can you have something that sounds wonderful feel like such a turd, just by how it is coming into place?
You tell me: I have just found out that I will be going on a week-long cruise at the beginning of June. I will have a balcony room facing the sea I will be wined and dined I will have access to world-class spa I will have a butler I will have access to food from morning until night I will have a fully stocked gym with plenty of classes to take I will have Broadway-style shows, including some ice shows I will be able to swim at some lovely beaches
So what is the problem? My mother just sent me a very short email. “It is my birthday, so I booked you, Sweetheart, me and my sweetheart on a cruise. Come by tomorrow so you can pay me for your stateroom. Xoxo, Mom P.S. Don't book the flight yet, because I want to plan a few days for all of us in Florida”
1. While we had discussed the possibility of going on a trip, SHE DIDN’T ASK 2. She committed my money. 3. She just assumed that we could get the time off from work.
On my road to being healthier, I need to manage my stress. So, what do I do? She is my mother and I love her. It is her birthday wish to go on a trip. It is a nice trip, and there will be many opportunities to have a nice time. Somehow though, this REALLY raises the blood pressure. In fact, I haven’t even mentioned it to Sweetheart yet because he will lose his cool. I mean really lose it.
So how do you explain how incredibly messed up this is without sounding like a whiny, little girl. I am in my 30’s and my mother just doesn’t know the word B-O-U-N-D-A-R-Y. I am fighting all urges to eat a cheese steak and fries. At least now I can confirm this woman is one of my food triggers.
I am 36 and have been overweight for most of my life. There are much better things that define me, but till I work on this weight, it is the stinky fart in the room. So, I write this to keep accountable, to find inspiration in others, to rekindle the joy in myself.