I did and completed, (focus on completed), my first SPIN class. I have been secretly plotting to do it for a while. I tried to do one a couple years ago, but I never had the stamina. I always whinged through the ass pain as I could never get the seat right. I always had a reason to quit. I considered my previous attempt to be a real failure, source of embarrassment, and I just needed to overcome it. Even if I got through the class just once, hated it, and never did it again, I needed to know that I could do it. I needed to validate what I kind of already knew: That I am stronger than I was before.
Well, I did it! And.... I really enjoyed it. The instructor was a bit intimidating: she was like a walking muscle with lungs. However, I liked the music (who wouldn't like climbing a hill to Led Zeppelin?), and I felt like I could set a pace for myself and not overdo it too soon. It helped that I have been using a heart rate monitor for a while, and know what my levels are.
This all being said, the true test is tomorrow morning, when I wake up and hopefully can move :-)
Now onto my food fail. Up to this point, I have made yummy, edible food. Today, was NOT that day. I have been reading about the use of chocolate as a spice in food. There are lots of health benefits to chocolate, not to mention: 'everything tastes better with chocolate!' WRONG.. Oh so wrong. I added cocoa powder to my veggie and tomato concoction. It was so bitter. Ick. I should have dumped it, but food-guilt me, cleared my plate, bite by nasty bite. I'm a little mad at myself for feeling guilt about food waste: what am I 8 years old!?! So lame of me.
I haven't given up yet on chocolate in cooking, but I think I need a recovery break. Complete Food Fail.
I haven't written much about the things I want to try. I find it funny that I have had this spin goal for years, and never mentioned it. I also have been dying for a while to try chocolate in my cooking, but didn't say a word. What do they have in common: fear of failure. So, I am going to, in future posts, start listing some of the things I would like to try, and goals I would like to aspire. Getting them out there makes them real and if I make it or break it, great. At least by putting it out there, fear of failure doesn't prevent me from putting skin in the game.
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