Thursday, April 29, 2010

Fat-Rat Mid Week (Anxiety Getting the Better)

Hi Rats.

I have been a bit off since last Friday.  I am just a ball of anxious energy, and all I want to do is run and hide from the gym.  I have not kept up this week with my no 0 physical activity challenge.  I did 5 minutes of nothing on Monday, and then, instead of going to the gym last night, I stayed home and watched 'Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants'.  How old am I, 12?  Next thing I know, I am going to be signing up for Miley Cyrus concerts.

As well, I just feel bloated for no good reason other than I am stressing and anxious.  I actually feel like a round medicine ball of stress, and no physical activity or stretching or food is making it go away.  I am a girl down without any crutch or mechanism to get herself back up.  I have been struggling like this now for days and it is starting to really get me down.

In terms of food, I was horrid on Monday.  I had a work dinner and they all wanted to go for Rodizio.  Ever do this?  It is Brazilian-style, meat fest.  Basically, it is an all you can eat meat buffet, except they bring the meat straight to your table.  You even have cards on your table that are red and green.  When the green card is up, the servers bring meat fresh from the grill straight to your plate.  They only stop when you submit defeat and flip the card to red.  So of course, I ate enough meat to make any carnivore proud.  I didn't binge, but I did want to try all the different options.  So, after 15 options, I definitely had too much and it has taken me days feel less gross.  I have been eating much less meat and much more veg these days, so this was just a total tail spin for my health.

The scale did move this week.  I lost .9 lbs, but it seems like a bittersweet win.  I do not feel defined by the scale, but I am not optimistic about going through a period of being stuck.  I just want some wins I can count and some consistent evidence that all this 'getting healthier' is paying off.  My mini goal for today is to get moving again and also do some extra PA to make up for my two days of weenie-hood.  For now, I will just pray that you are all having big wins and that my week will turn its head around.


  1. Sometimes it's like that. You may lose but feel totally unworthy of the loss because you didn't follow your plan for the week. I get like that too.

    The meat buffet looked awesome! (I am a total carnivore)

    You will figure out how to get yourself unstuck from this. I think you are on your way to putting yourself back on track by accomplishing a mini-goal for the day! :)

    You are doing wonderful! Keep at it! :)


  2. I think it's all about learning. Keep pondering and pontificating. You'll get there.

    I'm having to gracefully bow out of the Rat Pack challenge. Sorry. I'm happy to follow you on your journey though.

  3. take the .9 this week and don't hide from the gym!

    ...And "Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants" - ha!

    keep it up!

  4. don't stress about your lack of activity and what you think is not perfect eating. everyone goes throw feeling "bleh."

    you're aware of it, embrace it instead of beating yourself up, you'll get back to your routine in no time.

  5. Hi Missa friend!! O man, I can soooo understand!! But guess what? You don't have to stay down, chicka! Nope nope!

    Always a new day to start fresh and clean! It is honestly a choice, isn't it? And once you get back on that horse, woo wee, look out! Here comes Missa! :)

  6. No one can take the .9 from you. I totally get where you are coming from. And tomorrow darlin is a new day. Hang in there.

  7. While learning new habits everything can't be full speed ahead. Sometimes a day is just a day is just a day. Those are just as much a part of life as the WOOHOO moments! There is another one just around the corner!

  8. Oh I've been to one of those Brazilian meat places before. It's called Gauchos here in New Hampshire, so delicious, my DBF and his best friend made fun of me when I went up for seconds at the salad bar with all that meat around... but the salad bar was fantastic! LOL

    A loss is a loss :-D Great Job!

  9. it's all about, it's all about the climb ;)

    hey! are you local to me?? (Rhode Island) I ask because i am taking my mom to Rodizio for mothers day (as i did last year). Low carb heaven! ;) are they a chain i wonder?