Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Is My Bottom Below Death?

I read this saying in a post.  Some people don't hit their rock bottom.  Their rock bottom is below death.  As in, they just keep slipping till they just die.  Is this me?

Can I survive one hour of exercise a day so I can avoid 24 hours of dead?

Can I eat just what I planned, and not snack on disease and disappointment?

What the heck man?  I keep making promises to myself that I am terrified I won't be capable of keeping.
Why is can't I get over my own bullshit.  What is this compulsion of mine to EAT EAT EAT!!

I am not really a double post daily kind of gal, but I am just feeling raw.  I need an outlet.  Not sure where I am going with it yet.

1 comment:

  1. Yeah, been there, done that. Bottom for me wasn't death, but realizing that if i didn't change, and do it NOW, that i wouldn't be around for my daughter. I'm still digging up out of my mess, and some days still suck, but there are better days now.

    Instead of an hour, do 15 minutes. Instead of thinking in terms of days, think in terms of minutes. Some days, okay, MOST days, lol, this is what i do.

    Sending hugs your way... :)