Friday, March 11, 2011

Hating the Fatties

I never thought I would do this, but I am starting to find myself to be over critical of people who are fat.

I have a consultant working for me and I find myself constantly checking her work.  Why?  Cause she gives me the lazy vibe.  Yup, she's fat.  She sighs a lot when she shuffles through the office.  She takes extra breaks because she smokes.  Her clothes don't fit well, so she looks disheveled.  She is constantly snacking at her cube, or getting up to get snacks or drinks.  Productivity appears lower than other staff. 

While all the above is true, she also does the workload that has been presented to her.  I have not been dissatisfied with any of the results she has provided.  This being said, I keep thinking that she could be doing more.  Really, she just pisses me off because I used to be her and could easily be her again.  I want her to do better, because if she can't, maybe I can't either.  Self doubt is a real Bitch.  I wish there was something I could do that was somewhat professional, where I could give her the hint of moving and eating less.  I know there isn't, cause how self-righteous is that?!  But, I still want to.

I took a training class this week with one other person.  She was slow.  Yup.  She was fat.  But she wasn't that far off from my current size.  Still, I was not interested in waiting for her to catch up.  I really didn't want to work on her success.  I just wanted to do my thing.  The point of a group training is to inspire one another.  I wasn't having it.  Instead, I kept thinking this chic is just too slow for me.  I hated the class, as a result.  I ruined my own workout, which normally gives me such joy.  Well, maybe not joy, but it lets me burn off all my excess asshole anger.

So, here's to trying to lose my own bullshit.  Today, I am hateful.  What an ass am I....


  1. I feel the same. It's mean and I can hardly even admit it to myself, but I do feel that way.

  2. you work in my office....that is how others view me in my office, when in reality...I do 2 to 3 times more work. Not only of my own work, all the work they don't want to do OR they say they don't have time to do.

    No one comes to "chat" with me, no one asks me my ideas or opinions, no one invites me to the water cooler, and no one wants to be around me as I remind them of their own weight issues...

    Perhaps instead of checking her work, ASK her, Engage her, about how she feels, ask her to walk with you and then walk with her at her pace AND listen to what she has to offer....

    That is what I hope for every day at work...

  3. Jules: you are 150% right. I am treated just like you at work, yet I can't extend the same courtesy of friendship, heck humanity. Not happy about it. I have to figure out how to extend this Olive Branch without being too self-righteous or overbearing. I guess that is why I am writing this down. I have to face the music.