Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Avoiding the Camera

Jack's post made me think a bit.

I have been with my Sweetheart for over 17 years.  I think I can think of 10 pictures of us that I would actually show someone, and maybe 20 pictures that actually exist.  How is that possible?  I think there are whole portions of my life where I ducked a camera at any cost.  I undoubtedly did this because I was unhappy in my appearance.

Well, now I am less fat.  I am pleasantly happy about it.  However, I don't see myself changing my picture habits...  How do I start operation photogenification?  When I was small, I think my mother had me at JCPenney and Sears every week for a professional shoot.  I had what I can only coin a 'Cherry Coke' smile:  If you have trouble idenfying this, just close your eyes.  Imagine it is over 100 degrees and 100% humidity outside, and you just mowed the lawn.  You come into the garage, and pull an ice-cold Cherry Coke out of the fridge.  It opens with a sizzle.  You take a gulp.  You sigh.  Now, what smile is on your face? = Cherry Coke Smile.  I had the same overly exuberant pose in all my pictures.

I need to change my thinking.  I need a reason to smile so much and so hard that dimples magically appear.

Got any jokes to get me started?

3 comments:

  1. Wow, good question. I'm not really sure. I enjoy pictures, more so now that I've lost some weight, but I've always kind of liked smiling and such. I definitely have more pics of me recently than ever before tho. :)

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  2. I don't know if this will help, but here's a little story.
    Last summer my uber skinny friend was around a lot, with her runts. She wanted to take our kids to the pool...a bathing suit?? NO!!! and she said this to me: "Heather, Get over yourself! You are loosing out on the most increadible memories with your daughter because you are narcassitic enough to think people are not only going to look at you, but give a crap what you look like in a bathing suit. Suck it up, and be the mom you want to be deep down. No one cares but you!" I bought a bathing suit that week and since have had many a days at the pool/beach with my toddler and great memories to go with them...even a few photo's (from the boobs up!!). The point is that when she said that to me it sank in. No one cares, but me. Avoiding photo's (I do this too) and doing things that might leave me feeling exposed and vulnerable means that I miss out on things I can never get back. I'm glad you are looking to change the photo avoidance. I think it's a great step. I say you should think about how hard you've worked, how far you've come and how hot you'll be...and how jealous the homecoming queen will be of you in just a short time! OR you could just think of the stinky fart...beacuse frankly, I can't stop smiling over that sentence in your "About Me"!!

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  3. I am right there with you but I am learning to change my mindset. I have even taken a few "decent" shots lately ;-D

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